Another call from the jackals at Citibank almost sent me over the edge, pacing into the kitchen I said to the collections man "there is only so much anti-anxiety medication that I can take, and when I run out, there are seizures, and there is the hospital, and they, they call me too, there are bills, and if I die, my blood will be on your hands."
There was silence on the line. I was shaking. I realize that I must speak to my psychiatrist urgently about how to handle these collections calls, because they are sending me over the edge into a terrifying place.
"So do you think you'll be able to make a payment?"
"My blood. Your hands. I have to go." I hung up.
Clearly this is not an appropriate way to speak to a bill collector, but I am at the end of my rope, here. If anyone is reading this, do not take out private student loans. You can lose all of your limbs, or in my case lose your mind, and you will still be on the hook for the $17,000.
That was the last call of the day. I took half an Ativan and went back to my usual activities.